Can you wear your crown when you’re ill or in pain?
Continuing this series of questions about sovereignty, here’s a question from Rebecca Leigh of Smart Fresh Writing, about how to stay sovereign when you’re dealing with a chronic illness.
My question relates to sovereignty and physical ill-health / incapacity.
On one hand I have a sense of being placed in a physical prison, and having my choices limited.
But I also have other conflicting feelings about it. Some days I feel angry because no-one in my kingdom (my body) is obeying my commands. But then I feel sad and guilty because I think that I must be a very poor Queen for my kingdom to be in such disrepair. It hurts.
How can you live as the Queen or King, when it feels like the whole kingdom is rebelling?
Bec, I’m so sorry you’re feeling ill, angry, sad and guilty in your relationship with your body and your health.
The thing is, the sovereign is the leader who serves, rather than She Who Must Be Obeyed. Your inner selves won’t take kindly to being ordered around. Why would they?
Sovereignty brings all of your selves into right relationship with each other, and restores the inner order and pattern of your wholeness.
Its function is not to command your body to do what you want, but rather to create safety and support for all of your selves–to create an inner kingdom in which each self can flourish. Sovereignty means that you provide wise leadership, draw the very best out of your selves, and bring them together as a family to create the life that’s in harmony with your soul’s purposes.
A kingdom rebels because the needs of its members aren’t being heard and met.
We are not a singular self, but a collection of selves. And each of our selves is sovereign too; each one has the capacity for wholeness. Each of our selves emerges from the same Sacred source.
Our selves may become distorted and disconnected from their inner essence, but at the heart of every aspect of our selves is wholeness.
At the heart of pain, physical illness, incapacity, there is still wholeness. This is not just a nice idea, but a very real vibrational field which you can experience. It can be harder to access in the midst of physical pain, illness and disability, but we are fundamentally whole, even when we don’t feel that way.
This doesn’t mean that the physical disability is necessarily healed. There may be karmic or genetic reasons for it. But it does mean that you can know yourself as whole even though your body is disabled.
When you stand in your wholeness–when you identify yourself as whole, rather than identifying yourself as ill or disabled–then you can meet your illness, pain and disability with respect, love, delight and compassion. Remembering always that each of your selves has at its heart a truth and a gift that you need, in order to grow into your full potential.
You can talk with yourselves, especially the ones that carry illness and pain, and ask them to tell you about the spiritual truths at their hearts. Let them know how much you need their gifts, to create the life that’s yours to live. Listen to how they feel and what they need. Not with impatience or condescension, guilt or blame, but simply because they have wisdom and strength that are essential for your well-being.
Honor their sovereignty, and they’ll help you create a healthy personal ecology.
How do you handle illness, vulnerability, and pain? I’d love to hear your insights and comments, as well as your questions about Sovereignty.
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How appropo, as I’ve been dealing with a backslide in my hypothyroidism. I’m frustrated because even though it seems pretty clear that my body is telling me I need more rest and spaciousness in my life, I can’t prevent the opposite from happening.
Perhaps there is a compromise?
Thank you for these words of wisdom Hiro. As someone with a visual disability and various other health issues this is an excellent reminder. When I’m not feeling physicially as well as I should, it is my body (or selves) communicating messages about a need for change in lifestyle, emotional state, or how I relate to others.
In fact, I’d venture to say that it is some of the very times when I have been ill or dealing with health issues that I’ve had the most emotional or spiritual clarity.
‘…but at the heart of every aspect of our selves is wholeness’. Yes.
Thank you Hiro. This post has aroused a tremendous sense of gratitude and reverence for my health and physical well-being.
Now, how about wearing the crown when depressed and/or anxious and fearful? These are some of the disabilities I experience that also affect physical energies. I find the quicksand of a grey mindset quickly sets my crown askew.
Thank you Hiro, for this and all your wonderful guidance.
It sounds funny, but I feel like I’ve made a difference simply by having the intention of making friends with my gut (my chronic illness being Crohn’s Disease BTW).
So, when things are not going well, instead of thinking of my gut as the enemy and saying, “Argh, why are you doing this to me?”, I now try to think of my gut as a dear friend and say, “Oh, I can see you’re trying really hard to support me but you’re having a hard time. How can I help?”
That change in mindset (when I can remember to practice it!) makes everything softer and more open. I have similar conversations with the part of me that yearns for rest… asking, “what can we do now to help you with that?” rather than, “be quiet, I have work to do!”
Coming from the assumption that all my selves are on the same team, and offering self-compassion and self-kindness as a first step, even that seemingly small change makes a big difference.
Thank you again for your wisdom Hiro xox
This was exactly what I needed to read this morning as I sit here feeling like I’m trapped in a body that won’t do what I want it to.
It’s a timely reminder to myself that this isn’t my body trying to punish me. It means I can open myself back up to the wisdom it’s trying to share, or even just its needs. It’s doing its best with what it has. (Hey, dear body, I do appreciate you!)
Also – you don’t happen to watch/read Rumpole do you? My father bought my mum a mug one year for Mother’s Day that said “She Who Must Be Obeyed.” I giggled when I read that.